Apprehension
Fear. Anxiety. We all experience feelings like these several times in our lives. It's strange that, in my case at any rate, I seem to feel them at a time when I should be elated and happy.
I mean, it's Tuesday the 28th. That means I have less than one week of Christmas vacation left before classes at Furman resume full swing on January 4th. Now don't misintepret me. It's not that I'm not looking foward to going back, because I am. My strong finish to the fall semester has left me with a sense of renewed confidence that I desperately needed at that time. Spring term earlier this year ended very well, but I had to drop my Math class to get to that point. Now that I've finally conquered Math and maintained (even slightly increased) my GPA, I feel much more secure at Furman. I will readily admit that my decision to live full-time on campus has paid off greatly.
I don't know the real reason. I guess somehow, even when I have a long holiday and there are still a good few days of it left, in the back of my mind I'm already looking ahead to what's in store for me down the road. The day I get out for Christmas break, it hardly registers as a thought in my mind, but now that most of the break is behind me, the rapidly approaching date of my return to Furman is looking rather innocuous. I guess that still incites a little anxiety and fear in that I'll have to disconnect from vacation mode and get back to the daily grind. But I know I'll be fine after a short while. Soon, life will resume its normal course and it'll be like I never left at all.
My mother's feeling a little apprehensive as well, although hers is of a more serious nature than mine and for good reason. She was looking over some website on hysterectomies, which is the type of surgery she will be having in February, when I got home from work. My goodness, it droned on and on about the "lasting damage" that the operation will have on the body, along with the various symptoms of the hormone replacement drug that she'll have to take. That was consistent with the research I did on the surgery; when a woman has her uterus and her ovaries removed, she loses valuable amounts of the hormone estrogen, and so she needs medication to help her body regulate it properly. There's no telling how long she has to stay on the drug; it usually depends on the type of individual. But anyway, she wishes that she'd never found the website; it's pretty clear that the author is biased against hysterectomies; why, I have no idea. She's worried enough about her recovery period after the surgery, and this did nothing to ease her concerns. I did my best to reassure her that everything would be fine, though.
Well, that's about all for today, I suppose. Only three short days left of the year 2004. Enjoy it while you can. :)
Song of the Day: Steven Curtis Chapman - "Fingerprints of God"
Quote of the Day: "I was trying to type "aww" except my finger hit the "s" instead of the "w." Oh geez. I am so embarrassed to say the least." - Amanda ((LOL! Honest mistake, no worries.))
Verse of the Day: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:6-7
I mean, it's Tuesday the 28th. That means I have less than one week of Christmas vacation left before classes at Furman resume full swing on January 4th. Now don't misintepret me. It's not that I'm not looking foward to going back, because I am. My strong finish to the fall semester has left me with a sense of renewed confidence that I desperately needed at that time. Spring term earlier this year ended very well, but I had to drop my Math class to get to that point. Now that I've finally conquered Math and maintained (even slightly increased) my GPA, I feel much more secure at Furman. I will readily admit that my decision to live full-time on campus has paid off greatly.
I don't know the real reason. I guess somehow, even when I have a long holiday and there are still a good few days of it left, in the back of my mind I'm already looking ahead to what's in store for me down the road. The day I get out for Christmas break, it hardly registers as a thought in my mind, but now that most of the break is behind me, the rapidly approaching date of my return to Furman is looking rather innocuous. I guess that still incites a little anxiety and fear in that I'll have to disconnect from vacation mode and get back to the daily grind. But I know I'll be fine after a short while. Soon, life will resume its normal course and it'll be like I never left at all.
My mother's feeling a little apprehensive as well, although hers is of a more serious nature than mine and for good reason. She was looking over some website on hysterectomies, which is the type of surgery she will be having in February, when I got home from work. My goodness, it droned on and on about the "lasting damage" that the operation will have on the body, along with the various symptoms of the hormone replacement drug that she'll have to take. That was consistent with the research I did on the surgery; when a woman has her uterus and her ovaries removed, she loses valuable amounts of the hormone estrogen, and so she needs medication to help her body regulate it properly. There's no telling how long she has to stay on the drug; it usually depends on the type of individual. But anyway, she wishes that she'd never found the website; it's pretty clear that the author is biased against hysterectomies; why, I have no idea. She's worried enough about her recovery period after the surgery, and this did nothing to ease her concerns. I did my best to reassure her that everything would be fine, though.
Well, that's about all for today, I suppose. Only three short days left of the year 2004. Enjoy it while you can. :)
Song of the Day: Steven Curtis Chapman - "Fingerprints of God"
Quote of the Day: "I was trying to type "aww" except my finger hit the "s" instead of the "w." Oh geez. I am so embarrassed to say the least." - Amanda ((LOL! Honest mistake, no worries.))
Verse of the Day: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:6-7
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